Rom 5:10 For if, when we were enemies, we were
reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we
shall be saved by his life.
Reconciled
This
scripture tugged at me last night during our bible reading:
2 Cor.
5:14-19 For Christ’s love
compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all
died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for
themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again…. Therefore, if
anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is
here! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and
gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to
himself in Christ,not counting people’s sins against them.
It
tugged at me because what did it mean to be reconciled with Christ? Was God mad
at me? Did I do something wrong that I needed to be reconciled with Him? Reconciled definition: to bring into
agreement or harmony;
make compatible or
consistent.
Well
there you go; a hearty clarification. I think we as humans always think of
ourselves as gods over ourselves. That we are strong enough to go it alone
without the aid of a higher power, a force so great He created the world in a
breath. I’ve never thought of myself so high that I didn’t NEED God, but I
thought there might be others out there struggling with this ego trip of arrogance
on their own.
I do
remember a time where I was so young and vulnerable that I felt invincible. I
had lost my child, I was sixteen, and the invincibility carried me into age eighteen where I
thought drinking was my shield from harm. That was until the night I overdosed
on too much Schnapps and died passing out in my own vomit. I woke in a freezing
shower unable to remember how I got there and only remember the bright lights
that whisked me into the tub.
When
I woke up in bed the next morning I had a totally different outlook on life. It was at
that time I felt the need to be reconciled with Christ and a few journey’s
later I became a dedicated servant of Christ. Yes I was saved at fourteen where
I had given my life over to God, but I fell and I fell hard. I never turned away
from Christ, but again, I had an ego of invincibility about me.
I had given
birth to a deceased baby and any grown woman knows and understands the travails
of childbirth. Well, to a sixteen-year-old kid who didn’t have a live fetus
helping in the push, my pain was doubled.
I begged
for mercy after my drunken stupor, then I went to work and to this day I live
for Christ and Christ alone. I am reconciled with God and strive daily never to
be the invincible ego driven brat I was as a child.
God loved
me, the unlovable, with a rigorous commitment. He loved me when I tried to
ignore His all consuming power. God saw me for the potential that was in me,
when I saw none in myself. Christ walked a path for me, the sinner so that I
may one day stand before God with all barriers of opposition gone.
And to you
my friend I bear a message of reconciliation with God that no man/woman is
excluded from. I hope that from my words you see a woman who is passionate
about peace and reconciliation; a woman who is striving to be in alignment with
my Lord and Savior.
To Him be
the Glory!
God is not a deceiver, that
He should offer to support us, and then, when we lean upon Him, should slip
away from us. - Augustine
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